{"product_id":"letter-003-it-was-never-about-the-cashmere","title":"Letter 003 — It Was Never About the Cashmere","description":"\u003cp\u003eDear me,\u003cbr\u003eThe only iconic thing about the past week was the mess I am in.\u003cbr\u003eNot the aesthetic kind.\u003cbr\u003eThe kind that pulls my brain in four different directions at once.\u003cbr\u003eI need a drink. Not the polite amount.\u003cbr\u003eSo I'm turning Sunday into a small ritual: wine glass, silence, a letter. Just me.\u003cbr\u003eMy way of choosing myself.\u003cbr\u003eAnd each letter is the proof I hold.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e—\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eHave you ever worn cashmere?\u003cbr\u003eIt looks expensive. It sounds expensive.\u003cbr\u003eAnd it is fucking expensive.\u003cbr\u003eMidweek deliveries are my favourite.\u003cbr\u003eThey arrive just before the week becomes too much.\u003cbr\u003eThis one made Wednesday smell like luxury.\u003cbr\u003eAnd something else.\u003cbr\u003eMaybe a new beginning.\u003cbr\u003eI didn't fully believe it yet.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e—\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThe box needed a moment of respect.\u003cbr\u003eBut the old me started ripping it apart.\u003cbr\u003eThen I slowed down.\u003cbr\u003eJust a few seconds — long enough to actually feel the moment.\u003cbr\u003eOne piece.\u003cbr\u003eLying on my bed, ready to fulfil its purpose.\u003cbr\u003eWhether that was to make me look put together,\u003cbr\u003eor just a notch untouchable —\u003cbr\u003eI wasn't sure yet.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e—\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI won't lie — the woman in the advert helped this purchase.\u003cbr\u003eNot her exactly.\u003cbr\u003eBut the version she was pretending to be.\u003cbr\u003eHad it all together. Life. Herself. Looking easy.\u003cbr\u003eLies.\u003cbr\u003eThat's what comfort sells — the idea that tolerating your circumstances is the same as growing.\u003cbr\u003eI have never heard a truly successful person say,\u003cbr\u003e\"Thank God for my comfort zone.\"\u003cbr\u003eBut it's easier to be told what you want to hear\u003cbr\u003ethan to face the shitty truth that where you are in life —\u003cbr\u003eand where you are not —\u003cbr\u003eis yours.\u003cbr\u003eMy closet already knows this.\u003cbr\u003eI was buying an identity, because I am lacking mine.\u003cbr\u003eMy closet is full of this — trends, different versions, outfits bought for women I tried to become when I was still trying to align.\u003cbr\u003eEmotional baggage disguised as fabric.\u003cbr\u003eNo more.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e—\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eSo is that what this cashmere sweater is?\u003cbr\u003eI was drawn to it before I understood why.\u003cbr\u003eThe clarity always comes later.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e—\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI turned around and saw none of us in the mirror.\u003cbr\u003eNot the past. Not the present.\u003cbr\u003eBut a manifestation of the future.\u003cbr\u003eThe woman I want to be.\u003cbr\u003eUntouchable. Content.\u003cbr\u003eOwning every version of herself with fucking grace and wildness.\u003cbr\u003eI stood there a little longer.\u003cbr\u003eIn front of the mirror.\u003cbr\u003eIn front of the future.\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"Love Letters To Myself","offers":[{"title":"Default","offer_id":57916241838411,"sku":null,"price":1.49,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/1064\/4802\/7979\/files\/LLTM_Banner_2_cac2c407-f3d4-40b8-b8a8-f3b397ed6311.jpg?v=1785562811","url":"https:\/\/loveletterstomyself.co\/products\/letter-003-it-was-never-about-the-cashmere","provider":"Love Letters To Myself","version":"1.0","type":"link"}