{"product_id":"letter-017-slay-the-fucking-dragon","title":"Letter 017 — Slay the Fucking Dragon","description":"\u003cp\u003eDear me,\u003cbr\u003eAll my life I have seen the end of something as the end of everything I know.\u003cbr\u003eYet, I am standing here in front of that big window at gate number 684, watching the stillness of the sky, and I have never had more clarity that this is actually the beginning of everything I want.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e—\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eIt was easier to let go of him than I thought — maybe because I was happy, but I never understood that while I was in the moment.\u003cbr\u003eYet, if it was easy to let go of him, but still painful to remember that time, maybe it's because I made peace with him — but didn't with myself, for who I was when I was with him.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e—\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI always thought that I needed to fight the dragon to pass through the gate, but I never even came close to thinking that I am the dragon.\u003cbr\u003eI had to slay my own head.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e—\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eI am still surprised by my choice not to contact him, and for some reason incredibly proud of myself.\u003cbr\u003eI feel strong.\u003cbr\u003eI love this feeling.\u003cbr\u003eBut like every new feeling, it takes time to sit with you until you get to know each other.\u003cbr\u003eForgiving him is so much easier than forgiving myself.\u003cbr\u003eI wonder when the clarity of that — and why — will slap me one day when I least expect it.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e—\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eBut this is not what is on my mind now.\u003cbr\u003eFor the first time in my life, I do not want any man.\u003cbr\u003eNone.\u003cbr\u003eSomewhere along the way, in these four months of letters to myself, the only person I am excited to be with and to dedicate myself to is me.\u003cbr\u003eI am turning into the most interesting person in my life.\u003cbr\u003eI am filled up with this new feeling that I don't know how to call.\u003cbr\u003eI don't know how to process it.\u003cbr\u003eMaybe I feel content.\u003cbr\u003eMaybe I finally have a purpose.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e—\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eDear me, whatever this is, I have a whole life to spend investing in it.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e—\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eBut now I am up in the still sky, in seat 12A, having the worst glass of wine of my life, sitting next to a crying baby, and my feet are sweating in my rubber boots — but nothing can erase the fact that I am at the top of the world, feeling with all my blood that the ends are the brightest beginnings.\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"Love Letters To Myself","offers":[{"title":"Default","offer_id":57916281979211,"sku":null,"price":1.49,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/1064\/4802\/7979\/files\/LLTM_Banner_2_291cc36e-8636-409b-b53f-e01bbe16956a.jpg?v=1785562884","url":"https:\/\/loveletterstomyself.co\/products\/letter-017-slay-the-fucking-dragon","provider":"Love Letters To Myself","version":"1.0","type":"link"}